I struggled on and off last week with anxiety (an ongoing theme lately) which killed my appetite and made me just want to sleep and sleep - end result was my head didn't feel like pushing on the bench Friday night.

bar x reps

95 x 5

135 x 1 (decided to start skipping the reps with 115 to cut my warm ups back)

155 x 1

195 x hold for 3 secs

245 x 1 no touch

280 x 1 no touch

305 x 1 no touch

315 x 1 no touch

330 x miss

340 x miss

Shirt was tighter this week still, but I didn't have the patience to force a touch.  Then I tried to force myself to really want the 330 but on the way down my tricep hurt so I had the spotters take it, then Ross said go for 340 (adding weight that i've never tried almost always works for me because it scares me just enough to take it more seriously, but not this time).  I took it down aggressively but as I was moving the weight over to my belly my  bicep hurt so I had the spotters take it again.  I really just didn't have the mental aggression to fight for the lifts that night.

Saturday I was exhausted which didn't give me much hope for Sunday's squat training.  I gave myself the "just have fun now" mental speech and went into the gym lazy and tired.  I was slow to warm up and reluctant to put my briefs on.

bar x reps

105 x 5

belt on

145 x 5

195 x 5

225 x 3

briefs on

285 x 3

325 x 3

350 x 3 PR

365 x 3 PR

Once I got going my form felt solid and my briefs (the larger ones, size 34) fit me better this week.  Ross just kept adding weight so I just kept going, glad that I was able to push through. 

This week is off to a better start than last week - my head is in task mode which means I'm getting a lot done which in turn always makes me feel better.